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  • one of my friends wanted to take me to applebees tonight as a late birthday gift. i was terrified, but i accepted and i got a kids meal of chicken tenders and broccoli AND i challenged myself to get a birthday dessert too! once again it was a kids menu dessert but it’s something and i’m beyond proud of myself ♡
  • one of my friends wanted to take me to applebees tonight as a late birthday gift. i was terrified, but i accepted and i got a kids meal of chicken tenders and broccoli AND i challenged myself to get a birthday dessert too! once again it was a kids menu dessert but it’s something and i’m beyond proud of myself ♡
  •  58  8  29 minutes ago
  • 🎉 1000 FOLLOWERS CHALLENGE 🎉 A FULL BOX OF MACARONS!!! I can’t thank you all enough for 1k! ❤️I never thought this account would come so far and I know that you’ve supported me when I needed it and we are all strong enough to face any challenge that comes in our way and live the best lives possible! 😁I’ve literally always wanted to try macarons but I’ve never had them before so I thought to celebrate 1k I would treat myself! They were delicious 😍🙌 The flavours were (in order from the left) Raspberry, pistachio, lemon 🍋, vanilla, coffee ☕️ and chocolate! 🍫 Didn’t think I would like the pistachio and coffee ones but I loved them ALL! They were amazing! 😊 And, because 1k is such a huge milestone I wanted to make a change, so starting next week I’ll be doing either a pint party 🍦 or whole chocolate bar party 🍫 every Friday! I think this would be a great way to try everything I’ve wanted to ☺️ I’m thinking about doing a post with facts about me which I was going to put in the post but I don’t want to make it too long, so I might do that in the next post! If there’s anything you want to know please comment! 💕 Once again, thank you times a million for all your support ❤️❤️❤️ #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #recoveryispossible #food #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #foodblogger #eat #eatittobeatit #edrecovery #tasty #yum #yemek #anoreksiya #strongerthanmyeatingdisorder #anorexiafighter #lezzet #fuckanorexia #aestheticfood #foodphotography #edwarrior #macarons #nightsnack #dessert
  • 🎉 1000 FOLLOWERS CHALLENGE 🎉 A FULL BOX OF MACARONS!!! I can’t thank you all enough for 1k! ❤️I never thought this account would come so far and I know that you’ve supported me when I needed it and we are all strong enough to face any challenge that comes in our way and live the best lives possible! 😁I’ve literally always wanted to try macarons but I’ve never had them before so I thought to celebrate 1k I would treat myself! They were delicious 😍🙌 The flavours were (in order from the left) Raspberry, pistachio, lemon 🍋, vanilla, coffee ☕️ and chocolate! 🍫 Didn’t think I would like the pistachio and coffee ones but I loved them ALL! They were amazing! 😊 And, because 1k is such a huge milestone I wanted to make a change, so starting next week I’ll be doing either a pint party 🍦 or whole chocolate bar party 🍫 every Friday! I think this would be a great way to try everything I’ve wanted to ☺️ I’m thinking about doing a post with facts about me which I was going to put in the post but I don’t want to make it too long, so I might do that in the next post! If there’s anything you want to know please comment! 💕 Once again, thank you times a million for all your support ❤️❤️❤️ #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #recoveryispossible #food #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #foodblogger #eat #eatittobeatit #edrecovery #tasty #yum #yemek #anoreksiya #strongerthanmyeatingdisorder #anorexiafighter #lezzet #fuckanorexia #aestheticfood #foodphotography #edwarrior #macarons #nightsnack #dessert
  •  36  5  1 hour ago
  • ~some days it’s not going to be challenge meals and face masks. Some days it’s going to be sobbing in the pouring rain, microwaving frozen food to nourish yourself because it’s all you can handle, and anxiety so debilitating you can’t get up off of the floor. Some days will be good and some, like today, will be hard. But it’s in times like this that we have to show up, speak up, and never give up.~ 💕
  • ~some days it’s not going to be challenge meals and face masks. Some days it’s going to be sobbing in the pouring rain, microwaving frozen food to nourish yourself because it’s all you can handle, and anxiety so debilitating you can’t get up off of the floor. Some days will be good and some, like today, will be hard. But it’s in times like this that we have to show up, speak up, and never give up.~ 💕
  •  25  2  2 hours ago
  • recovery is hard. it’s eating even when it’s the last thing you want to do. i’m struggling at the moment and that’s okay. i shouldn’t beat myself up for finding things a bit tough at the moment. we are allowed to struggle - it’s normal and does not make us weak. temptations to skip a snack, restrict where i can, choose the lowest cal option, over-exercise are all so strong. ed thoughts are slowly creeping their way back into my mind and trying to bring me backwards. however i cannot let this happen, i must keep fighting them. i’ve come too far to fall backwards, even though it feels like the easy way out - my only option. i need to talk to someone before things get too bad and i do end up giving into those irrational thoughts. i haven’t seen any of my team this week but i’m seeing someone on tuesday, it’s not my therapist but at least it’s someone who will listen to me. i have my family, especially my mum, to talk to but i just find it difficult to open up to them as i hate admitting that i’m struggling and i hate the thought of making them worry. however i can’t do this on my own, i have proven to myself that things never end well when i try to deal with them myself. so, here it is, i’m struggling right now and that is okay. i’m struggling but i must push through.
  • recovery is hard. it’s eating even when it’s the last thing you want to do. i’m struggling at the moment and that’s okay. i shouldn’t beat myself up for finding things a bit tough at the moment. we are allowed to struggle - it’s normal and does not make us weak. temptations to skip a snack, restrict where i can, choose the lowest cal option, over-exercise are all so strong. ed thoughts are slowly creeping their way back into my mind and trying to bring me backwards. however i cannot let this happen, i must keep fighting them. i’ve come too far to fall backwards, even though it feels like the easy way out - my only option. i need to talk to someone before things get too bad and i do end up giving into those irrational thoughts. i haven’t seen any of my team this week but i’m seeing someone on tuesday, it’s not my therapist but at least it’s someone who will listen to me. i have my family, especially my mum, to talk to but i just find it difficult to open up to them as i hate admitting that i’m struggling and i hate the thought of making them worry. however i can’t do this on my own, i have proven to myself that things never end well when i try to deal with them myself. so, here it is, i’m struggling right now and that is okay. i’m struggling but i must push through.
  •  81  6  4 hours ago
  • My favorite lunch at my favorite place with my favorite people❤️ The weather today’s been amazing and this whole day turned out so great🥳 So thankful for all the people around me💘 and thank you all SO MUCH!!! for all of the birthday wishes, it means the world🌟 xx
  • My favorite lunch at my favorite place with my favorite people❤️ The weather today’s been amazing and this whole day turned out so great🥳 So thankful for all the people around me💘 and thank you all SO MUCH!!! for all of the birthday wishes, it means the world🌟 xx
  •  69  4  4 hours ago
  • made the most of the lovely weather and had a shopping day with mam and it was really really nice. i stepped into a coffee shop for the first time in months!!! and i almost picked up a brownie to share with mum but couldn’t quite face it (and proceeded to have a good ol’ sulk) but the fact that i was even willing to give it a shot says a lot. bought some lovely bits n pieces from topshop and a denim skirt from hollister which i canne wait to wear omg. oh shiii we also bought a really cool grater that has the grater part and then a box with like measurements up the side underneath??? it’s the most excited i’ve seen my mum in months😂😂🌈🌈
for mothers day i bought my mum a ring. it was a ring from pandora that i decided to make a ‘promise ring’ that came with many promises that i wrote down in a letter. she wears it every day. and whilst we were our my mum said ‘i have a surprise, follow me’. so i did. 
i thought she was taking me to costa tbh so i was fkn terrified. 
but. 
as i was walking we passed all the coffee shops. sure we may have gone in after but i was very confused. 
and then mum stopped in front of a store. 
pandora. 
and at first i walked past but she nodded towards it and said to me ‘get whatever you want’. so i had a look round and eventually decided... i wanted to get a matching ring with my mum. 
so we picked it out and got it all sorted, mum paid and we walked out. 
i have her the biggest hug and couldn’t stop thanking her. 
she said ‘this is my promise to you, that you’ll always be in my heart. whenever we’re apart you can look at it and think of me, just as i do whenever i’m at work.’
she made me cry today. 
so dear my lovely mum. 
i love you,
i’m getting better for you. 
to make you smile,
to spontaneously go to coffee shops and order gluten free cakes. 
for us to be truly happy again. 
i love you. (swipe to see the ringggggg)🕊💫☁️
  • made the most of the lovely weather and had a shopping day with mam and it was really really nice. i stepped into a coffee shop for the first time in months!!! and i almost picked up a brownie to share with mum but couldn’t quite face it (and proceeded to have a good ol’ sulk) but the fact that i was even willing to give it a shot says a lot. bought some lovely bits n pieces from topshop and a denim skirt from hollister which i canne wait to wear omg. oh shiii we also bought a really cool grater that has the grater part and then a box with like measurements up the side underneath??? it’s the most excited i’ve seen my mum in months😂😂🌈🌈
    for mothers day i bought my mum a ring. it was a ring from pandora that i decided to make a ‘promise ring’ that came with many promises that i wrote down in a letter. she wears it every day. and whilst we were our my mum said ‘i have a surprise, follow me’. so i did.
    i thought she was taking me to costa tbh so i was fkn terrified.
    but.
    as i was walking we passed all the coffee shops. sure we may have gone in after but i was very confused.
    and then mum stopped in front of a store.
    pandora.
    and at first i walked past but she nodded towards it and said to me ‘get whatever you want’. so i had a look round and eventually decided... i wanted to get a matching ring with my mum.
    so we picked it out and got it all sorted, mum paid and we walked out.
    i have her the biggest hug and couldn’t stop thanking her.
    she said ‘this is my promise to you, that you’ll always be in my heart. whenever we’re apart you can look at it and think of me, just as i do whenever i’m at work.’
    she made me cry today.
    so dear my lovely mum.
    i love you,
    i’m getting better for you.
    to make you smile,
    to spontaneously go to coffee shops and order gluten free cakes.
    for us to be truly happy again.
    i love you. (swipe to see the ringggggg)🕊💫☁️
  •  94  4  4 hours ago
  • ~Normal Eating~

Normal eating is sitting down at a table hungry, and eating until you are satisfied. It is being able to chose food you like, and eat it. Truly, enough of it. Not just stop eating when you think you should. Normal eating is being able to give some thought to your food selection so you get nutritious food, but not being so wary and restrictive that you miss out on the enjoyable ones. Normal eating is giving yourself permission to eat simply because you are happy, sad or bored, or just because it feels good. Normal eating is mostly three meals a day, or four or five, or it can be choosing to munch along the way. It is leaving some cookies on the plate because you know you can have some again tomorrow, or it is eating more now because they taste so wonderful. Normal eating is overeating at times, feeling stuffed and uncomfortable. And it can be undereating at times, and wishing you had more. Normal eating is trusting your body to make up for your mistakes in eating. Normal eating only takes up some of your time and attention, but keeps its place as only one important area of your life.
  • ~Normal Eating~

    Normal eating is sitting down at a table hungry, and eating until you are satisfied. It is being able to chose food you like, and eat it. Truly, enough of it. Not just stop eating when you think you should. Normal eating is being able to give some thought to your food selection so you get nutritious food, but not being so wary and restrictive that you miss out on the enjoyable ones. Normal eating is giving yourself permission to eat simply because you are happy, sad or bored, or just because it feels good. Normal eating is mostly three meals a day, or four or five, or it can be choosing to munch along the way. It is leaving some cookies on the plate because you know you can have some again tomorrow, or it is eating more now because they taste so wonderful. Normal eating is overeating at times, feeling stuffed and uncomfortable. And it can be undereating at times, and wishing you had more. Normal eating is trusting your body to make up for your mistakes in eating. Normal eating only takes up some of your time and attention, but keeps its place as only one important area of your life.
  •  85  1  5 hours ago
  • ~Update~

I’m doing pretty good today. I had to spent ANOTHER 3 hours taking this test to see if i have a learning disorder, but i know it’s probably worth it. It turns out i’m gonna be seeing my friends a lot over break. I’m gonna see a few tomorrow, and will also be going to the city next week, and stay with a friend there for a few days. So i’m actually really excited for this break. Body image and mood have been pretty good today. I’m starting to come to terms with the new body i will have to stay in for the rest of my life. The weight gain still doesn’t feel completely real in a sense, but i know i have to keep doing what i’m doing to become healthy. Eating is going really well. I tried a new lunch today which was oatmeal w/ frozen blueberries and a bunch of other stuff, and it was sooo good. Anyways, hope everyone is doing well, and have a nice day!
  • ~Update~

    I’m doing pretty good today. I had to spent ANOTHER 3 hours taking this test to see if i have a learning disorder, but i know it’s probably worth it. It turns out i’m gonna be seeing my friends a lot over break. I’m gonna see a few tomorrow, and will also be going to the city next week, and stay with a friend there for a few days. So i’m actually really excited for this break. Body image and mood have been pretty good today. I’m starting to come to terms with the new body i will have to stay in for the rest of my life. The weight gain still doesn’t feel completely real in a sense, but i know i have to keep doing what i’m doing to become healthy. Eating is going really well. I tried a new lunch today which was oatmeal w/ frozen blueberries and a bunch of other stuff, and it was sooo good. Anyways, hope everyone is doing well, and have a nice day!
  •  56  1  5 hours ago
  • Doughnut!! Salted caramel!! They were on offer in tesco so I've had one 2 days in a row!! And my face lol. I feel weird posting my face, I only ever normally do on my story but here's my face. 
So update from my appt. 
It's was okay I guess idk. We talked about weigh in and how we might move it to monthly instead of fortnightly as it causes me a lot of stress and anxiety and messes up my eating more. I'm not sure how I feel about it yet though, she said I can do that as even though my eatings goes up and down a lot my weight has stayed relatively stable for the past few months on the cusp of healthy, only with a kg or so above or below, I just need to keep eating mechanically to let my body adjust properly as I'm awful still, eating .mainly just in the evenings instead of spreading it out, so I'm going to try super hard with breakfast next week, especially as I go back to 6th form. We also talked about my funny feeling and how it links with the eating and my anxiety and stuff, it's quite a negative feeling and we're going to be working on it more. They've messed up my prescription for melatonin as I'm shit at sleeping so I've not had any for a couple of weeks and basically slept awful, meaning I'm more on edge and irritable which doesn't help. Yet I went on another walk today, not quite as long just into town with my dad for a drink which was nice. I've just had a snack of apple and biscoff and a class of strawberry diet coke which I actually quite like, quite a few people really haven't so I'm surprised I have actually as I'm not normally that keen on flavoured coke (other than cinnamon that holds my heart😍). Going to try do a lil revision but not sure it's gonna happen really I'm just singing along to the mama mia sound tracks!! Love abba!

#eatingdisorder #edwontwin #edrecovery #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderrecovery #edfighters #edwarriors #eatingdisordersurvivor #anxiety #anorexiarecovery #anorexiawarrior #foodisfuel #fearfood #fuckanorexia #recoverywarrior #recoveryisworthit #recovery #strongnotskinny #beateatingdisorders #beated
  • Doughnut!! Salted caramel!! They were on offer in tesco so I've had one 2 days in a row!! And my face lol. I feel weird posting my face, I only ever normally do on my story but here's my face.
    So update from my appt.
    It's was okay I guess idk. We talked about weigh in and how we might move it to monthly instead of fortnightly as it causes me a lot of stress and anxiety and messes up my eating more. I'm not sure how I feel about it yet though, she said I can do that as even though my eatings goes up and down a lot my weight has stayed relatively stable for the past few months on the cusp of healthy, only with a kg or so above or below, I just need to keep eating mechanically to let my body adjust properly as I'm awful still, eating .mainly just in the evenings instead of spreading it out, so I'm going to try super hard with breakfast next week, especially as I go back to 6th form. We also talked about my funny feeling and how it links with the eating and my anxiety and stuff, it's quite a negative feeling and we're going to be working on it more. They've messed up my prescription for melatonin as I'm shit at sleeping so I've not had any for a couple of weeks and basically slept awful, meaning I'm more on edge and irritable which doesn't help. Yet I went on another walk today, not quite as long just into town with my dad for a drink which was nice. I've just had a snack of apple and biscoff and a class of strawberry diet coke which I actually quite like, quite a few people really haven't so I'm surprised I have actually as I'm not normally that keen on flavoured coke (other than cinnamon that holds my heart😍). Going to try do a lil revision but not sure it's gonna happen really I'm just singing along to the mama mia sound tracks!! Love abba!

    #eatingdisorder #edwontwin #edrecovery #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderrecovery #edfighters #edwarriors #eatingdisordersurvivor #anxiety #anorexiarecovery #anorexiawarrior #foodisfuel #fearfood #fuckanorexia #recoverywarrior #recoveryisworthit #recovery #strongnotskinny #beateatingdisorders #beated
  •  36  2  5 hours ago
  • #birthdaydinner 🙃 Inte så fancy direkt. Böngryta och och kokt potatis.
  • #birthdaydinner 🙃 Inte så fancy direkt. Böngryta och och kokt potatis.
  •  33  4  6 hours ago
  • Goood evening guyyzz🌙♥️
Holiday season is finally on⚡️⚡️⚡️
1st pic's showing my dinner, a baasic sandwich, cucumber, radish and a latte macchiato (had dinner earlier cause I had therapy at 6pm✌🏼)
2nd pic's showing my afternoonsnack; soy yog, blackberry ice (#fearfood) and also a latte✌🏼✨
Dinner didn't went as well as supposed, cause I'm already nervous bout weighing tomorrow morning🙃
I nearly cried and maman and me had a lil arguement bout my time at clinic🙃 She thinks I'm eating not enough atm, based on the fact that of course she isn't able to see every food I intake⚡️ She doesn't really trust me cause the past months I threw away lots of food⚡️ But she also said she knows how hard I fight atm, so at the end everything went well🤞🏼 Adding upt to this: we bought some fresubin and high caloric bars, in case I'm not able to eat🙃 At therapy we talked about my stuggles and my battle and it was such a blessing🤞🏼 I love my therapist so much✨ We talked bout my upcoming family vacay and easter lunch cause I'm bit scared atm bout them🙃 She gave me advices  and convinced me to talk to my parents bout those feares🤞🏼 Maybe I'm gonna do this later✌🏼 rn my maman & I are on pur way to a DIY store cause we need a few things for our barbecue tomorrow🕊 
Wishing you all a blessed & chilled evening✨
Lots of love, M🕊♥️
#ed #anorexia #edfamily #anorexiafighter #anorexiafood #againstanorexia #recovery #recoveryjourney #edfighter #lifewtihed #lifesftered #fuckanorexia #eatingdisorder #survive #food #foodblogger #anorexiaandfood #foodcraving #cravings #lifestyle
  • Goood evening guyyzz🌙♥️
    Holiday season is finally on⚡️⚡️⚡️
    1st pic's showing my dinner, a baasic sandwich, cucumber, radish and a latte macchiato (had dinner earlier cause I had therapy at 6pm✌🏼)
    2nd pic's showing my afternoonsnack; soy yog, blackberry ice ( #fearfood) and also a latte✌🏼✨
    Dinner didn't went as well as supposed, cause I'm already nervous bout weighing tomorrow morning🙃
    I nearly cried and maman and me had a lil arguement bout my time at clinic🙃 She thinks I'm eating not enough atm, based on the fact that of course she isn't able to see every food I intake⚡️ She doesn't really trust me cause the past months I threw away lots of food⚡️ But she also said she knows how hard I fight atm, so at the end everything went well🤞🏼 Adding upt to this: we bought some fresubin and high caloric bars, in case I'm not able to eat🙃 At therapy we talked about my stuggles and my battle and it was such a blessing🤞🏼 I love my therapist so much✨ We talked bout my upcoming family vacay and easter lunch cause I'm bit scared atm bout them🙃 She gave me advices and convinced me to talk to my parents bout those feares🤞🏼 Maybe I'm gonna do this later✌🏼 rn my maman & I are on pur way to a DIY store cause we need a few things for our barbecue tomorrow🕊
    Wishing you all a blessed & chilled evening✨
    Lots of love, M🕊♥️
    #ed #anorexia #edfamily #anorexiafighter #anorexiafood #againstanorexia #recovery #recoveryjourney #edfighter #lifewtihed #lifesftered #fuckanorexia #eatingdisorder #survive #food #foodblogger #anorexiaandfood #foodcraving #cravings #lifestyle
  •  21  2  7 hours ago
  • ❤️THANK YOU SO MUCH MY 100 FOLLOWERS! Can’t believe how much love and support you guys have been giving me in just 5 days. I selebrated with this delicious fear food (ate three slices)! This isn’t my official post, just wanted to say how grateful i am to share my journey with u. All the love for you my beautiful fighters❤️
  • ❤️THANK YOU SO MUCH MY 100 FOLLOWERS! Can’t believe how much love and support you guys have been giving me in just 5 days. I selebrated with this delicious fear food (ate three slices)! This isn’t my official post, just wanted to say how grateful i am to share my journey with u. All the love for you my beautiful fighters❤️
  •  47  5  7 hours ago
  • Snack plate❤ life got better when i started eating sweet potato fries, and stopped letting negative and naive opinions get to me✌🏻🤘🏻
  • Snack plate❤ life got better when i started eating sweet potato fries, and stopped letting negative and naive opinions get to me✌🏻🤘🏻
  •  28  3  8 hours ago
  • 4.18.19 
Cheers to 7 years in recovery from anorexia. I can’t believe it’s been 7 years since i admitted myself into treatment and decided to love myself. Recovery isn’t easy by at means. These last couple of years have really tested the fire i have inside me. And to everyone who support and follows my journey it’s because of you guys that I’m so open and honest. I love you all so very much. Here’s to 7 more years body ✨
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  • 4.18.19
    Cheers to 7 years in recovery from anorexia. I can’t believe it’s been 7 years since i admitted myself into treatment and decided to love myself. Recovery isn’t easy by at means. These last couple of years have really tested the fire i have inside me. And to everyone who support and follows my journey it’s because of you guys that I’m so open and honest. I love you all so very much. Here’s to 7 more years body ✨



    #recovery
    #selflove
    #fuckanorexia
  •  106  12  9 hours ago
  • Numbers worth counting you can’t find on the scale...⁣
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- Minutes you share with loved ones ⁣
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- Hours spent doing activities you enjoy ⁣
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- Lives impacted by your presence ⁣
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- Fears you’ve overcome (includes fear foods)⁣
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- Boundaries you’ve set out of self care⁣
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- Smiling faces and laughing bodies at the table⁣
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- Places you’ve traveled to⁣
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- Anytime you felt something truly beautiful ⁣
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I could go on. This caption was inspired by @wholehearteddietitian 💞 I love her content. You must follow! 🌟⁣
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  • Numbers worth counting you can’t find on the scale...⁣

    - Minutes you share with loved ones ⁣

    - Hours spent doing activities you enjoy ⁣

    - Lives impacted by your presence ⁣

    - Fears you’ve overcome (includes fear foods)⁣

    - Boundaries you’ve set out of self care⁣

    - Smiling faces and laughing bodies at the table⁣

    - Places you’ve traveled to⁣

    - Anytime you felt something truly beautiful ⁣

    ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨⁣

    I could go on. This caption was inspired by @wholehearteddietitian 💞 I love her content. You must follow! 🌟⁣
  •  267  8  10 hours ago
  • #lunch var kikärtsbiffar med potatis, sallad och hummus som inte kom med på bilden. Tycker att det är så himla trist att jämt behöva äta själv, även om jag alltid har sällskap. Alla andra typ ”skippar” lunch och det känns som att jag äter heeela tiden😒
  • #lunch var kikärtsbiffar med potatis, sallad och hummus som inte kom med på bilden. Tycker att det är så himla trist att jämt behöva äta själv, även om jag alltid har sällskap. Alla andra typ ”skippar” lunch och det känns som att jag äter heeela tiden😒
  •  35  6  11 hours ago
  • F E A R
we’ve all felt it.
in different ways,
for different reasons.
anxiety.
terror.
whatever you want to call it,
they all stem from fear.
but what is fear?
False
Evidence
Appearing 
Real 
that’s fear.
for example,
something that terrifies me is WEIGHT GAIN.
it sends me into such a great sea of anxiety that i go to desperate measures to lessen it.
but in the long term it just makes it worse.
you just have to sit with it.
just because something scares you,
doesn’t mean it is actually bad.
weight gain is a positive thing,
but because i’m scared of it (FALSE EVIDENCE)
my eating disorder makes me think it is a bad thing (APPEARING REAL)
but it’s not me.
it’s not bad.
it’s not real.
it’s positive.
so i want you to all face up to the False Evidence.
because you know that it’s good.
it Appears Real.
but it’s just your eating disorder twisting the truth.
we can face our fears.
every day.
we will face our fears.
i’m facing one now!
change.
normally i have an apple for my smaller snack,
but today,
i wanted a WHOLE mango,
so i bought a mango,
and ate the whole thing for my snack.
i had done considerably more exercise than i would have done,
so i needed it,
this was unknown calories too.
but i did it.
a slap in anorexia’s puny face.

#recovery #strongnotskinny #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #food #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #fighting #recoveryispossible #nourishtoflourish #edwarrior #bdd #foodisfuel #edsoldier #strong #food #freedom #fuckanorexia #realrecovery
  • F E A R
    we’ve all felt it.
    in different ways,
    for different reasons.
    anxiety.
    terror.
    whatever you want to call it,
    they all stem from fear.
    but what is fear?
    False
    Evidence
    Appearing
    Real
    that’s fear.
    for example,
    something that terrifies me is WEIGHT GAIN.
    it sends me into such a great sea of anxiety that i go to desperate measures to lessen it.
    but in the long term it just makes it worse.
    you just have to sit with it.
    just because something scares you,
    doesn’t mean it is actually bad.
    weight gain is a positive thing,
    but because i’m scared of it (FALSE EVIDENCE)
    my eating disorder makes me think it is a bad thing (APPEARING REAL)
    but it’s not me.
    it’s not bad.
    it’s not real.
    it’s positive.
    so i want you to all face up to the False Evidence.
    because you know that it’s good.
    it Appears Real.
    but it’s just your eating disorder twisting the truth.
    we can face our fears.
    every day.
    we will face our fears.
    i’m facing one now!
    change.
    normally i have an apple for my smaller snack,
    but today,
    i wanted a WHOLE mango,
    so i bought a mango,
    and ate the whole thing for my snack.
    i had done considerably more exercise than i would have done,
    so i needed it,
    this was unknown calories too.
    but i did it.
    a slap in anorexia’s puny face.

    #recovery #strongnotskinny #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #food #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #fighting #recoveryispossible #nourishtoflourish #edwarrior #bdd #foodisfuel #edsoldier #strong #food #freedom #fuckanorexia #realrecovery
  •  73  14  11 hours ago
  • ~S~C~H~O~O~L~
Yep, that's a pic of my full packed schoolbag✌🏼⚡️#tooheavy ~How do I deal with it?~
First of all I'm really good at school. My grades are good and I get along with all of my teachers.
But eventhough this all sounds well, I have to admid that I've got major problems with school, especially with long school days⚡️
I had social phobia for a long time, so the crowd of students at school still scaring me⚡️ they're all so loud and annoying me🌩 It's not like I wouldn't get along with them, but during long school days this feelings put huge pressure on me. So I often leave school earlier, but afterwards I feel guilty for that cause it feels like I lost a battle🌩 But I've quite got some skills how to deal with it✌🏼 I always have art stuff with me and when all gets too much I start drawing. It calms me down and gives me power and the ability to stay strong💪🏼 Weird fact: lil snacks during school day also helping me alot🤞🏼 I've recently started a list in my book, "how to deal with school"; do you wanna see it soon?
Are you still at school? And if yes, how do you deal with it?
Wishing you a great afternoon filled with joy and peace✌🏼
Lots of love, M🕊♥️
#ed #anorexia #edfamily #anorexiafighter #anorexiafood #againstanorexia #recovery #recoveryjourney #edfighter #lifewtihed #lifesftered #fuckanorexia #eatingdisorder #survive #food #foodblogger #anorexiaandfood #foodcraving #cravings #lifestyle
  • ~S~C~H~O~O~L~
    Yep, that's a pic of my full packed schoolbag✌🏼⚡️ #tooheavy ~How do I deal with it?~
    First of all I'm really good at school. My grades are good and I get along with all of my teachers.
    But eventhough this all sounds well, I have to admid that I've got major problems with school, especially with long school days⚡️
    I had social phobia for a long time, so the crowd of students at school still scaring me⚡️ they're all so loud and annoying me🌩 It's not like I wouldn't get along with them, but during long school days this feelings put huge pressure on me. So I often leave school earlier, but afterwards I feel guilty for that cause it feels like I lost a battle🌩 But I've quite got some skills how to deal with it✌🏼 I always have art stuff with me and when all gets too much I start drawing. It calms me down and gives me power and the ability to stay strong💪🏼 Weird fact: lil snacks during school day also helping me alot🤞🏼 I've recently started a list in my book, "how to deal with school"; do you wanna see it soon?
    Are you still at school? And if yes, how do you deal with it?
    Wishing you a great afternoon filled with joy and peace✌🏼
    Lots of love, M🕊♥️
    #ed #anorexia #edfamily #anorexiafighter #anorexiafood #againstanorexia #recovery #recoveryjourney #edfighter #lifewtihed #lifesftered #fuckanorexia #eatingdisorder #survive #food #foodblogger #anorexiaandfood #foodcraving #cravings #lifestyle
  •  17  3  12 hours ago
  • Detta var min #lunch idag. Är det bara jag som gillar att äta tacos på detta vis haha? Vad föredrar ni i wrap eller på tallrik? Hur som helst. Detta är bara vanlig mat just som all annan mat och det är ingen fara att äta till lunch eller på en torsdag. Vissa kanske har "regler" som säger att tacos ska man äta på fredagar till middag. Men guess what din mage kan inte veckodagarna och inte heller ser den skillnad på kalori och kalori. Så nu hade vi detta som rester och då åt jag det. För att jag ville!
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#fuckätstörningar #fuckanorexia #fuckana #foodismedecin, #anorexiaisnotcool #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #recoverywin
  • Detta var min #lunch idag. Är det bara jag som gillar att äta tacos på detta vis haha? Vad föredrar ni i wrap eller på tallrik? Hur som helst. Detta är bara vanlig mat just som all annan mat och det är ingen fara att äta till lunch eller på en torsdag. Vissa kanske har "regler" som säger att tacos ska man äta på fredagar till middag. Men guess what din mage kan inte veckodagarna och inte heller ser den skillnad på kalori och kalori. Så nu hade vi detta som rester och då åt jag det. För att jag ville!
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    #fuckätstörningar #fuckanorexia #fuckana #foodismedecin, #anorexiaisnotcool #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #recoverywin
  •  31  2  13 hours ago
  • Jag satt i väntrummet. Nervös, pulsen hög till skyarna och med tårarna i ögonen. Det var min tur i nummerlappskön och jag gick fram till receptionen. Sköterskan bakom disken, "vad kan jag hjälpa dig med?" Äh, ja, vad säger man? Hur uttrycker man denna situation verbalt. "Äh, jag behöver någon som kan hjälpa mig med min problematik till mat." .

Imorn, den 19 april i fjol tog jag tag i mitt ätstörda liv. Hade jag vetat vad som komma skall hade jag aldrig tagit mig dit. Men efter besök på hälsocentralen med läkare, dietister och psykologer som inte kunde ett skvatt om ätstörningsproblematik fick jag tillslut rätt behandling i stan, på Ätstörningsenheten. Med det vill jag också säga att ge inte upp, trots fel behandling, sjukvårdspersonal som behandlar dig som skit. Stå på dig, kräv din vård och ta vara på den professionella hjälp som finns. .

Jag är ännu inte klar, jag är på god väg, men min resa är inte slut. Jag har mycket kvar att kämpa med och jag kommer fortsätta. Nu ger jag inte upp, nu ska jag bli frisk och fri! Jag är redo för ett liv utan självhat och svält. #fuckanorexia
  • Jag satt i väntrummet. Nervös, pulsen hög till skyarna och med tårarna i ögonen. Det var min tur i nummerlappskön och jag gick fram till receptionen. Sköterskan bakom disken, "vad kan jag hjälpa dig med?" Äh, ja, vad säger man? Hur uttrycker man denna situation verbalt. "Äh, jag behöver någon som kan hjälpa mig med min problematik till mat." .

    Imorn, den 19 april i fjol tog jag tag i mitt ätstörda liv. Hade jag vetat vad som komma skall hade jag aldrig tagit mig dit. Men efter besök på hälsocentralen med läkare, dietister och psykologer som inte kunde ett skvatt om ätstörningsproblematik fick jag tillslut rätt behandling i stan, på Ätstörningsenheten. Med det vill jag också säga att ge inte upp, trots fel behandling, sjukvårdspersonal som behandlar dig som skit. Stå på dig, kräv din vård och ta vara på den professionella hjälp som finns. .

    Jag är ännu inte klar, jag är på god väg, men min resa är inte slut. Jag har mycket kvar att kämpa med och jag kommer fortsätta. Nu ger jag inte upp, nu ska jag bli frisk och fri! Jag är redo för ett liv utan självhat och svält. #fuckanorexia
  •  77  20  13 hours ago
  • Birthday breakfast🥳☕️💕🌟🎉
  • Birthday breakfast🥳☕️💕🌟🎉
  •  214  47  15 hours ago
  • Hey ihr lieben🥀,
Sry das ich mich jetzt erst wieder melde aber mich setzt Freitag einfach so unter Druck das ich kaum einen Kopf für was anderes habe. Die letzten Tage waren essensmäßig ganz okey, denke ich. Die schlimmen Gedanken sind zwar da und mein Body image ist Grausam aber ich versuche durchzuhalten😓. Leider hatte ich in den letzten Tagen ziemlich Stress mit meinem dad und es kamen einfach viele Erinnerungen hoch. Und zu allem übel habe ich dann heute auch noch meine Periode wieder bekommen😭. Ich habe eine wahnsinns Angst vor dem morgigen tag. Das gute ist, das ich am Samstag früh über Ostern zu meiner besten Freundin fahre😍 und dann geht es mir (und hoffentlich auch ihr!!) wieder besser und ich bekomme erstmal keinen Rückfall. Meine Trauer macht mich momentan einfach komplett fertig. Auf den Bildern seht ihr meine highlights der letzten Tage. Sie sind denke ich ziemlich selbsterklärend. Ich werde euch dann berichten wie es morgen war und ja.. Ich gebe mein bestes stark zu bleiben. Ich wünsche euch einen schönen Tag und Stay Strong💪💕!
  • Hey ihr lieben🥀,
    Sry das ich mich jetzt erst wieder melde aber mich setzt Freitag einfach so unter Druck das ich kaum einen Kopf für was anderes habe. Die letzten Tage waren essensmäßig ganz okey, denke ich. Die schlimmen Gedanken sind zwar da und mein Body image ist Grausam aber ich versuche durchzuhalten😓. Leider hatte ich in den letzten Tagen ziemlich Stress mit meinem dad und es kamen einfach viele Erinnerungen hoch. Und zu allem übel habe ich dann heute auch noch meine Periode wieder bekommen😭. Ich habe eine wahnsinns Angst vor dem morgigen tag. Das gute ist, das ich am Samstag früh über Ostern zu meiner besten Freundin fahre😍 und dann geht es mir (und hoffentlich auch ihr!!) wieder besser und ich bekomme erstmal keinen Rückfall. Meine Trauer macht mich momentan einfach komplett fertig. Auf den Bildern seht ihr meine highlights der letzten Tage. Sie sind denke ich ziemlich selbsterklärend. Ich werde euch dann berichten wie es morgen war und ja.. Ich gebe mein bestes stark zu bleiben. Ich wünsche euch einen schönen Tag und Stay Strong💪💕!
  •  19  3  15 hours ago
  • 🎉Birthday breakfast var havregrynsgröt med havredryck, valnötter och frukt. Idag fyller både jag och min mamma år så jag hoppas verkligen att dagen blir bråk-fri.🎀🎈💗💐
  • 🎉Birthday breakfast var havregrynsgröt med havredryck, valnötter och frukt. Idag fyller både jag och min mamma år så jag hoppas verkligen att dagen blir bråk-fri.🎀🎈💗💐
  •  40  4  16 hours ago
  • California sunsets are one of the few things I can still count on ✈️ #nofilter
  • California sunsets are one of the few things I can still count on ✈️ #nofilter
  •  51  2  17 hours ago
  • Good morning Guyyz🌤
1st pic showing my breakfast including two sourdough sandwiches (fav type of bread✨) with cottagecheese, a bowl of soy yog with choc chips and 1/2 banana and a latte macchiato
2nd pic showing my food prep for lunch at school; polenta with mixed bell peppers, tuna and cottagecheese✨
Yess, it's my last schoolday before easter holdiays start, but my school decided that we'll still have the whole day⚡️ #thetroubleisreal 
I'm already nervous cause yesterday I came home earlier and I've already been missing out a lot of schooltime during the last few weeks✌🏼 Well, guess I have to challenge myself staying the whole day🤞🏼💪🏼 Also tomorrow is weighing day and I'm really scared. My maman is gonna weigh me before breakfast and I won't see the number, but I already struggle alot with stepping on a scale⚡️
But I'll try not to waste too mich time thinking bout it and eat anyway🤞🏼
Wishing you all a blessed morning🌤
Lots of love, M🕊♥️
#ed #anorexia #edfamily #anorexiafighter #anorexiafood #againstanorexia #recovery #recoveryjourney #edfighter #lifewtihed #lifesftered #fuckanorexia #eatingdisorder #survive #food #foodblogger #anorexiaandfood #foodcraving #cravings #lifestyle
  • Good morning Guyyz🌤
    1st pic showing my breakfast including two sourdough sandwiches (fav type of bread✨) with cottagecheese, a bowl of soy yog with choc chips and 1/2 banana and a latte macchiato
    2nd pic showing my food prep for lunch at school; polenta with mixed bell peppers, tuna and cottagecheese✨
    Yess, it's my last schoolday before easter holdiays start, but my school decided that we'll still have the whole day⚡️ #thetroubleisreal
    I'm already nervous cause yesterday I came home earlier and I've already been missing out a lot of schooltime during the last few weeks✌🏼 Well, guess I have to challenge myself staying the whole day🤞🏼💪🏼 Also tomorrow is weighing day and I'm really scared. My maman is gonna weigh me before breakfast and I won't see the number, but I already struggle alot with stepping on a scale⚡️
    But I'll try not to waste too mich time thinking bout it and eat anyway🤞🏼
    Wishing you all a blessed morning🌤
    Lots of love, M🕊♥️
    #ed #anorexia #edfamily #anorexiafighter #anorexiafood #againstanorexia #recovery #recoveryjourney #edfighter #lifewtihed #lifesftered #fuckanorexia #eatingdisorder #survive #food #foodblogger #anorexiaandfood #foodcraving #cravings #lifestyle
  •  21  5  18 hours ago
  • i need some cute dishes so all my snacks aren’t on the same creepy plate with a minion’s eye peeking out 🙄🤣 usual #nightsnack with a lil asparagus leftover from dinner because Yummyyyyyy ! have a good night kids xoxo
  • i need some cute dishes so all my snacks aren’t on the same creepy plate with a minion’s eye peeking out 🙄🤣 usual #nightsnack with a lil asparagus leftover from dinner because Yummyyyyyy ! have a good night kids xoxo
  •  30  3  19 hours ago
  • snack: a piece of bread cut into fours with cookie butter! cookie butter is my latest obsession hehe 🍪💗
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[ huge TW ahead ] i still have a few more weeks before i can go into recovery. i would be lying if i said i wasn’t at my lowest point. i’m struggling to just survive through the rest of this semester to be able to go into treatment. i shouldn’t be making school my priority but i am. i had a weigh in with my school nurse today (she’s been weighing me regularly) and i lost a lot of weight since 2 weeks ago. now she told me she wants to weigh my several times weekly. and she said if i lose one more pound, she’s going to have to hospitalize me now and i’ll have to leave school even though i have THREE weeks left in the semester. this is so so so hard because i’m eating 100-600 calories a day if that and that’s all i can fit in my stomach and i’m just losing consistently. i’m not in control of my ed. i’m the worst i’ve ever been, the lowest weight i’ve ever been. i have the mindset of wanting to recover, i just can’t do it on my own. i need to wait until the summer when i go inpatient/residential. i’m just so scared because i know i’m going to lose more weight and the nurse is going to freak out on me and make me leave school. i’ve tried so hard this semester. i don’t want it to go to waste. this is so fucking hard. i hate this. i hate it.
  • snack: a piece of bread cut into fours with cookie butter! cookie butter is my latest obsession hehe 🍪💗
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    [ huge TW ahead ] i still have a few more weeks before i can go into recovery. i would be lying if i said i wasn’t at my lowest point. i’m struggling to just survive through the rest of this semester to be able to go into treatment. i shouldn’t be making school my priority but i am. i had a weigh in with my school nurse today (she’s been weighing me regularly) and i lost a lot of weight since 2 weeks ago. now she told me she wants to weigh my several times weekly. and she said if i lose one more pound, she’s going to have to hospitalize me now and i’ll have to leave school even though i have THREE weeks left in the semester. this is so so so hard because i’m eating 100-600 calories a day if that and that’s all i can fit in my stomach and i’m just losing consistently. i’m not in control of my ed. i’m the worst i’ve ever been, the lowest weight i’ve ever been. i have the mindset of wanting to recover, i just can’t do it on my own. i need to wait until the summer when i go inpatient/residential. i’m just so scared because i know i’m going to lose more weight and the nurse is going to freak out on me and make me leave school. i’ve tried so hard this semester. i don’t want it to go to waste. this is so fucking hard. i hate this. i hate it.
  •  247  36  21 hours ago