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not feeling so great today. regardless of my current state of mind—one of crippling self-hatred and an overwhelming feeling of inadequacy that seems to live inside my brain like a parasite—i tried hard today to treat myself with kindness. i always try to ask myself: would i treat someone else this way? more often than not, the answer is no. so why do i feel like it’s acceptable—typical—for me to think and do such horrible things to and about myself? at the end of the day, aren’t i human too? i pride myself on my willingness to seek out the good in all people, when i can’t even seem to find the light within myself. and that feels really hypocritical. so today, i’m choosing to be nice to myself. please try to do the same.
i made plans with pauline tonight. i’m helping her grocery shop, and i picked out a nice recipe for dinner that we’re gonna make together. i am going to eat a whole serving no matter what. and even if rn i’m just going through the motions of living, that doesn’t mean that one day i won’t get there.