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  • 21st Birthday food!! midnight: Hawaiian and bbq pizza 
9AM: granola bar 
1pm-4pm: BRUNCH!! sweet potato pancakes and Brussels with potato hash and eggs :) so so yummy made by my partner ! 
9pm: unpictured- baked ziti with sausage; 1/4 turkey hero. ...
I had such an amazing birthday, I couldn’t have asked for something more special. I did drink a lot through and I am really unhappy with my body visually today and my head is so upset about how much I ate. Today I’ve caught myself trying to compensate so I want to stomp that out by eating something nutritious and doing a hot yoga. 
This was the first birthday since I turned 11 that I didn’t have a goal weight. I keep getting Snapchat memories of this time last year where I was 10 lbs lighter doing body checks saying “you are so fat never forget it.” I do just want to forget it. I just want to like myself without comparing to my old selves. I am new, I am whole, I am here. (Now I just need to believe it.)
  • 21st Birthday food!! midnight: Hawaiian and bbq pizza
    9AM: granola bar
    1pm-4pm: BRUNCH!! sweet potato pancakes and Brussels with potato hash and eggs :) so so yummy made by my partner !
    9pm: unpictured- baked ziti with sausage; 1/4 turkey hero. ...
    I had such an amazing birthday, I couldn’t have asked for something more special. I did drink a lot through and I am really unhappy with my body visually today and my head is so upset about how much I ate. Today I’ve caught myself trying to compensate so I want to stomp that out by eating something nutritious and doing a hot yoga.
    This was the first birthday since I turned 11 that I didn’t have a goal weight. I keep getting Snapchat memories of this time last year where I was 10 lbs lighter doing body checks saying “you are so fat never forget it.” I do just want to forget it. I just want to like myself without comparing to my old selves. I am new, I am whole, I am here. (Now I just need to believe it.)

  •  32  2  16 hours ago
  • 🌞 remember your worth. Your strengths along with the weaknesses, how and where you can improve, why and if those things matter to who you have been or to who you are trying to be. 🌞 
I’m having a hard time separating my body image from my eating again. I’ve been maintaining a weight I feel so uncomfortable at but I know the discomfort isn’t because of how my body feels but is anorexia trying to sneak back in when I am feeling weak. I am at such a vulnerable point currently, I’m teetering on a ledge I could jump off of or run from. Try to stay positive.
Happy Tuesday warriors ❣️❣️❣️❣️
  • 🌞 remember your worth. Your strengths along with the weaknesses, how and where you can improve, why and if those things matter to who you have been or to who you are trying to be. 🌞
    I’m having a hard time separating my body image from my eating again. I’ve been maintaining a weight I feel so uncomfortable at but I know the discomfort isn’t because of how my body feels but is anorexia trying to sneak back in when I am feeling weak. I am at such a vulnerable point currently, I’m teetering on a ledge I could jump off of or run from. Try to stay positive.
    Happy Tuesday warriors ❣️❣️❣️❣️

  •  21  3  17 hours ago
  • I know recovery might seem impossible right now.
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Having to buy the food, prepare the food and eat the food might seem like the biggest mountain to climb.
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Don’t think about the mountain, don’t think about how long it’ll take you to get there. Instead, concentrate on how you will feel when you finally get there and on the amazing view you’ll get to enjoy.
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Take one day at the time, one meal at the time even. Keep going and believe in yourself.
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If that grass managed to grow under that tarmac then you, my dears, can do anything 💚
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#crunchnutrition
  • I know recovery might seem impossible right now.
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    Having to buy the food, prepare the food and eat the food might seem like the biggest mountain to climb.
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    Don’t think about the mountain, don’t think about how long it’ll take you to get there. Instead, concentrate on how you will feel when you finally get there and on the amazing view you’ll get to enjoy.
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    Take one day at the time, one meal at the time even. Keep going and believe in yourself.
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    If that grass managed to grow under that tarmac then you, my dears, can do anything 💚
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    #crunchnutrition

  •  16  1  17 hours ago
  • One thing I tell my clients that I coach through eating disorder recovery is that the disorder they are suffering with is not something they should allow to be defined by.
In many cases, when I was sick I heard many people, even medical professionals  describe me as "the anorexic". This was, and still is, a severe problem in today's world as we allow ourselves, and others, to regernate who we are through what we are suffering with.
In truth, no one, and I mean NO ONE, has the right to tell you how to define yourself or instill a new way of definition without your consent.
Conversely, your eating disorder, or rather, any illness or disease is not and will NEVER be you. It is simply a way of describing what you are suffering with and nothing more. I mean, when you have chronic migraines, do you call yourself the migrain-er? No.
Ironically enough, this tends to happen mostly with individuals suffering with mental illness. You see, eating disorders in particular are sly disorders as they crave for an identity to latch onto and consume the one that is occupying the current body. 
I did it. Many of us did it.
I defined and became my disorder for over 13 years and lost myself within it. 
My social butterfly personality was burned, my love for adventure dimmed, and my soul caught into a bottle with no air.
I was subdued, a walking carcass was all that was left.
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Don't allow yourself to fall victim to this. You have more power than you think and have the choice to either define or not define with your struggle.
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#eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #anxietyrecovery #recoveryisworthit #recovery #prorecovery #chooserecovery #anarecovery #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalillness #youareyouronlylimit #chooseyou #showupforyourself #mtlhealth #mtlhealthcoach #mtlwellness #healthymtl #wellness #youarenotyourthoughts #youarenotyourillness
  • One thing I tell my clients that I coach through eating disorder recovery is that the disorder they are suffering with is not something they should allow to be defined by.
    In many cases, when I was sick I heard many people, even medical professionals describe me as "the anorexic". This was, and still is, a severe problem in today's world as we allow ourselves, and others, to regernate who we are through what we are suffering with.
    In truth, no one, and I mean NO ONE, has the right to tell you how to define yourself or instill a new way of definition without your consent.
    Conversely, your eating disorder, or rather, any illness or disease is not and will NEVER be you. It is simply a way of describing what you are suffering with and nothing more. I mean, when you have chronic migraines, do you call yourself the migrain-er? No.
    Ironically enough, this tends to happen mostly with individuals suffering with mental illness. You see, eating disorders in particular are sly disorders as they crave for an identity to latch onto and consume the one that is occupying the current body.
    I did it. Many of us did it.
    I defined and became my disorder for over 13 years and lost myself within it.
    My social butterfly personality was burned, my love for adventure dimmed, and my soul caught into a bottle with no air.
    I was subdued, a walking carcass was all that was left.
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    Don't allow yourself to fall victim to this. You have more power than you think and have the choice to either define or not define with your struggle.
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    #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #anxietyrecovery #recoveryisworthit #recovery #prorecovery #chooserecovery #anarecovery #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalillness #youareyouronlylimit #chooseyou #showupforyourself #mtlhealth #mtlhealthcoach #mtlwellness #healthymtl #wellness #youarenotyourthoughts #youarenotyourillness

  •  24  0  19 hours ago
  • the next month is a lot of traveling which is fun and i definitely enjoy it. however it usually means not having a set schedule which messes with me a lot and makes me very out of control and then i usually end up using behaviors. i’m aware that it happens which is good because hopefully i’ll be able to keep an eye on it and take a step back and try and ground myself when i start to feel like everything is wild. do you guys have any tips on traveling when in recovery that still isn’t 100%? -
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#eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #chooserecovery #recoveryjourney #mentalhealthawareness #edawarness #eatingdisorderawareness #travel
  • the next month is a lot of traveling which is fun and i definitely enjoy it. however it usually means not having a set schedule which messes with me a lot and makes me very out of control and then i usually end up using behaviors. i’m aware that it happens which is good because hopefully i’ll be able to keep an eye on it and take a step back and try and ground myself when i start to feel like everything is wild. do you guys have any tips on traveling when in recovery that still isn’t 100%? -
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    #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #chooserecovery #recoveryjourney #mentalhealthawareness #edawarness #eatingdisorderawareness #travel

  •  20  1  20 January, 2020
  • Check deze! In Nieuw Zeeland werd ik op mijn laatste avond mee uit eten genomen naar Dicey Rileys. Ik nam deze gigantische gluten-free burger...and it was so good!
  • Check deze! In Nieuw Zeeland werd ik op mijn laatste avond mee uit eten genomen naar Dicey Rileys. Ik nam deze gigantische gluten-free burger...and it was so good!

  •  22  2  20 January, 2020
  • "Da quando sei dimagrita hai una faccia di merda."
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"Dovresti fare qualcosa per quelle rughe."
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"Hai mai pensato al Botox per le occhiaie?"
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Perché se non pesi 40 kg il mondo non accetterà mai che hai un disturbo alimentare. Sei solo una BRAVAH che dimagrisce, che però poi dovrebbe ovviamente stare a pensare agli effetti del peso perso. Perché se sei grassa nessuno si fermerà mai a chiederti se quelle due taglie perse sono volontarie, nemmeno il dottore. Ti diranno tutti BRAVAH, applaudendo come scimmie. Ti fanno i complimenti, come se poi fosse davvero un merito entrare in una taglia mainstream.
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Beh, perdere peso non è l'obiettivo della mia vita. E ammetto che sono stressata e mangio poco, ED È SBAGLIATO, perché quando sono felice e serena peso 85 kg, mangio sano e vado in palestra tutti i giorni. Quando la gente mi guarda e dice ODDIO FA QUALCOSA, sono sana. Fisicamente e psicologicamente. E sto ammettendo qui, pubblicamente, di non essere perfetta, di essere in un periodo di enorme stress emotivo, perché la salute mentale non è e non deve essere un taboo, né qualcosa di secondario rispetto a tabelle di BMI che non dicono niente di noi e che qualche medico pigro utilizza per decidere frettolosamente come stiamo. I BRAVAH, per favore, conservateli per altre occasioni. Io sto bene, sono controllata, ma se sei stressat* e mangi di meno devi rivolgerti a un professionista. Sempre. E vorrei che fosse chiaro una volta per tutte. ❤️ ~ #mentalhealth #mentalhealthwareness #chooserecovery #curvyisnotacrime #bodypositivity #bodypositive #femminista #femministe #femminismo #bodyimage #psicologia
  • "Da quando sei dimagrita hai una faccia di merda."
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    "Dovresti fare qualcosa per quelle rughe."
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    "Hai mai pensato al Botox per le occhiaie?"
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    Perché se non pesi 40 kg il mondo non accetterà mai che hai un disturbo alimentare. Sei solo una BRAVAH che dimagrisce, che però poi dovrebbe ovviamente stare a pensare agli effetti del peso perso. Perché se sei grassa nessuno si fermerà mai a chiederti se quelle due taglie perse sono volontarie, nemmeno il dottore. Ti diranno tutti BRAVAH, applaudendo come scimmie. Ti fanno i complimenti, come se poi fosse davvero un merito entrare in una taglia mainstream.
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    Beh, perdere peso non è l'obiettivo della mia vita. E ammetto che sono stressata e mangio poco, ED È SBAGLIATO, perché quando sono felice e serena peso 85 kg, mangio sano e vado in palestra tutti i giorni. Quando la gente mi guarda e dice ODDIO FA QUALCOSA, sono sana. Fisicamente e psicologicamente. E sto ammettendo qui, pubblicamente, di non essere perfetta, di essere in un periodo di enorme stress emotivo, perché la salute mentale non è e non deve essere un taboo, né qualcosa di secondario rispetto a tabelle di BMI che non dicono niente di noi e che qualche medico pigro utilizza per decidere frettolosamente come stiamo. I BRAVAH, per favore, conservateli per altre occasioni. Io sto bene, sono controllata, ma se sei stressat* e mangi di meno devi rivolgerti a un professionista. Sempre. E vorrei che fosse chiaro una volta per tutte. ❤️ ~ #mentalhealth #mentalhealthwareness #chooserecovery #curvyisnotacrime #bodypositivity #bodypositive #femminista #femministe #femminismo #bodyimage #psicologia

  •  211  10  20 January, 2020
  • Breakfast and lunch!! Cheerios with oat milk and a green machine for brekky and a turkey burger with Gouda for lunch !! :) ... feeling pretty good I’ve been eating more balanced and mindfully recently instead of overeating and I’m proud of how far I’ve come since starting this account in October :) and I’m proud of you all too and so thankful to be sharing each others journeys ❣️❣️❣️
  • Breakfast and lunch!! Cheerios with oat milk and a green machine for brekky and a turkey burger with Gouda for lunch !! :) ... feeling pretty good I’ve been eating more balanced and mindfully recently instead of overeating and I’m proud of how far I’ve come since starting this account in October :) and I’m proud of you all too and so thankful to be sharing each others journeys ❣️❣️❣️

  •  42  2  19 January, 2020
  • Sorry I’ve been M.I.A. But there’s only a very good reason to that which I’ve been more focused on other aspects of my life rather than food and recovery. It feels so good and refreshing. Although I still get very bad days where I feel like I couldn’t do it anymore and I just hate how my body gradually changes, I still managed to push through. I feel alive again. No matter how hard it could be, you can do it too. Stay strong 💕💕 it’s worth the wait. *
#edrecovery #recoverywarrior #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #chooserecovery #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness
  • Sorry I’ve been M.I.A. But there’s only a very good reason to that which I’ve been more focused on other aspects of my life rather than food and recovery. It feels so good and refreshing. Although I still get very bad days where I feel like I couldn’t do it anymore and I just hate how my body gradually changes, I still managed to push through. I feel alive again. No matter how hard it could be, you can do it too. Stay strong 💕💕 it’s worth the wait. *
    #edrecovery #recoverywarrior #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #chooserecovery #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness

  •  18  1  19 January, 2020
  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
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It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
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Not all men!
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I would never do that!
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Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
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I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
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The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
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The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
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The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
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The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
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The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
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Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
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Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
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Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
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I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
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I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
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  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
    .
    It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
    .
    Not all men!
    .
    I would never do that!
    .
    Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
    .
    I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
    .
    The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
    .
    The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
    .
    The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
    .
    The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
    .
    The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
    .
    Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
    .
    Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
    .
    Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
    .
    I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
    .

    I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
    .

  •  10  5  19 January, 2020
  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
.
It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
.
Not all men!
.
I would never do that!
.
Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
.
I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
.
The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
.
The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
.
The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
.
The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
.
The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
.
Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
.
Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
.
Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
.
I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
.

I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
.
  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
    .
    It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
    .
    Not all men!
    .
    I would never do that!
    .
    Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
    .
    I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
    .
    The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
    .
    The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
    .
    The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
    .
    The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
    .
    The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
    .
    Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
    .
    Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
    .
    Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
    .
    I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
    .

    I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
    .

  •  8  1  19 January, 2020
  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
.
It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
.
Not all men!
.
I would never do that!
.
Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
.
I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
.
The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
.
The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
.
The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
.
The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
.
The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
.
Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
.
Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
.
Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
.
I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
.

I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
.
  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
    .
    It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
    .
    Not all men!
    .
    I would never do that!
    .
    Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
    .
    I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
    .
    The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
    .
    The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
    .
    The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
    .
    The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
    .
    The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
    .
    Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
    .
    Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
    .
    Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
    .
    I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
    .

    I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
    .

  •  8  1  19 January, 2020
  • Mummy, I’m really bored of Nutella (I know, I know, I KNOW, ok?), could I please have marmite or peanut butter on my toast from now on?
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Hear me out here.
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Pierre is a chocolate monster and one day was introduced to Nutella (probably by me, it’s part of my childhood). He hasn’t looked back since...
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I know it’s not the best breakfast for him or the planet. So, I don’t buy Nutella all the time and I’ve encouraged him to have different things. I even made my very own chocolate spread, which was, if I may say, delicious but somehow he knew it wasn’t the real deal.
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So I decided not to make a big deal out of it, not to outright restrict it because I didn’t want to confuse him: you can have it when mummy is feeling nostalgic about her childhood but not when she’s feeling she should be a better mother, nutritionist, person 🤯
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I let it happen because I wanted him to decide for himself to ease off. Had I totally banned it, I would have made Nutella even more appealing to him.
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This is what what some of you do: I can’t have biscuits, ice cream, bread etc. This is bad and if I have it I’m a bad person. Then you binge on the stuff...
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Consider the usefulness of easing up on some of your food rules.
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If strict food rules lead you to binge, how could you do things differently?
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#crunchnutrition
  • Mummy, I’m really bored of Nutella (I know, I know, I KNOW, ok?), could I please have marmite or peanut butter on my toast from now on?
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    Hear me out here.
    .
    Pierre is a chocolate monster and one day was introduced to Nutella (probably by me, it’s part of my childhood). He hasn’t looked back since...
    .
    I know it’s not the best breakfast for him or the planet. So, I don’t buy Nutella all the time and I’ve encouraged him to have different things. I even made my very own chocolate spread, which was, if I may say, delicious but somehow he knew it wasn’t the real deal.
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    So I decided not to make a big deal out of it, not to outright restrict it because I didn’t want to confuse him: you can have it when mummy is feeling nostalgic about her childhood but not when she’s feeling she should be a better mother, nutritionist, person 🤯
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    I let it happen because I wanted him to decide for himself to ease off. Had I totally banned it, I would have made Nutella even more appealing to him.
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    This is what what some of you do: I can’t have biscuits, ice cream, bread etc. This is bad and if I have it I’m a bad person. Then you binge on the stuff...
    .
    Consider the usefulness of easing up on some of your food rules.
    .
    If strict food rules lead you to binge, how could you do things differently?
    .
    #crunchnutrition

  •  30  5  19 January, 2020
  • 𝗜𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗲𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝗮𝘂𝘁𝘆 𝗶𝗻 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴, 𝗱𝗼𝗻’𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗶𝘁 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗮𝗴𝗿𝗲𝗲. 🌻
___
..ein Zitat, das ich diese Woche gelesen habe & mich seitdem nicht mehr loslässt. 
Auch wenn es im Vergleich zu früher schon so viel besser geworden ist, schreibe ich es mir nach wie vor nochmal hinter die Ohren, aber vor allem ins Herz. 🤍
___
Bei diesem Frühstück waren sich Herz, Kopf & Bauch übrigens allesamt einig: YUMM! 🤤🙌🏼 [𝖠𝗇𝗓𝖾𝗂𝗀𝖾]
Das ist die Banane-Kokos-Mohn Frühstücksbowl (von @frau_ultrafrisch) getoppt mit Soja-Joghurt, Kokosraspel & dem Vegan Cocoa Choc Müsli (von @mymuesli) 🍫
𝗪𝗲𝗿 𝗵ä𝘁𝘁𝗲 𝗟𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗮𝘂𝗳 𝗱𝗮𝘀 𝘇𝘄𝗲𝗶𝘁𝗲 𝗦𝗰𝗵ä𝗹𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗻? 🥣
Ich wünsche euch einen wunderbaren Sonntag. ☀️
  • 𝗜𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗲𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝗮𝘂𝘁𝘆 𝗶𝗻 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴, 𝗱𝗼𝗻’𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗶𝘁 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗮𝗴𝗿𝗲𝗲. 🌻
___
    ..ein Zitat, das ich diese Woche gelesen habe & mich seitdem nicht mehr loslässt. 
Auch wenn es im Vergleich zu früher schon so viel besser geworden ist, schreibe ich es mir nach wie vor nochmal hinter die Ohren, aber vor allem ins Herz. 🤍
___
    Bei diesem Frühstück waren sich Herz, Kopf & Bauch übrigens allesamt einig: YUMM! 🤤🙌🏼 [𝖠𝗇𝗓𝖾𝗂𝗀𝖾]
    Das ist die Banane-Kokos-Mohn Frühstücksbowl (von @frau_ultrafrisch) getoppt mit Soja-Joghurt, Kokosraspel & dem Vegan Cocoa Choc Müsli (von @mymuesli) 🍫
    𝗪𝗲𝗿 𝗵ä𝘁𝘁𝗲 𝗟𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗮𝘂𝗳 𝗱𝗮𝘀 𝘇𝘄𝗲𝗶𝘁𝗲 𝗦𝗰𝗵ä𝗹𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗻? 🥣
Ich wünsche euch einen wunderbaren Sonntag. ☀️

  •  336  51  19 January, 2020
  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
.
It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
.
Not all men!
.
I would never do that!
.
Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
.
I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
.
The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
.
The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
.
The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
.
The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
.
The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
.
Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
.
Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
.
Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
.
I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
.

I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
.
  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
    .
    It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
    .
    Not all men!
    .
    I would never do that!
    .
    Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
    .
    I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
    .
    The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
    .
    The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
    .
    The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
    .
    The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
    .
    The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
    .
    Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
    .
    Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
    .
    Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
    .
    I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
    .

    I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
    .

  •  13  1  19 January, 2020
  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
.
It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
.
Not all men!
.
I would never do that!
.
Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
.
I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
.
The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
.
The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
.
The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
.
The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
.
The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
.
Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
.
Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
.
Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
.
I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
.

I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
.
  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
    .
    It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
    .
    Not all men!
    .
    I would never do that!
    .
    Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
    .
    I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
    .
    The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
    .
    The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
    .
    The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
    .
    The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
    .
    The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
    .
    Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
    .
    Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
    .
    Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
    .
    I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
    .

    I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
    .

  •  19  1  19 January, 2020
  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
.
It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
.
Not all men!
.
I would never do that!
.
Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
.
I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
.
The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
.
The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
.
The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
.
The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
.
The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
.
Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
.
Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
.
Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
.
I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
.

I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
.
  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
    .
    It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
    .
    Not all men!
    .
    I would never do that!
    .
    Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
    .
    I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
    .
    The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
    .
    The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
    .
    The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
    .
    The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
    .
    The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
    .
    Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
    .
    Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
    .
    Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
    .
    I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
    .

    I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
    .

  •  22  1  19 January, 2020
  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
.
It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
.
Not all men!
.
I would never do that!
.
Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
.
I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
.
The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
.
The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
.
The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
.
The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
.
The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
.
Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
.
Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
.
Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
.
I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
.

I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
.
  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
    .
    It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
    .
    Not all men!
    .
    I would never do that!
    .
    Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
    .
    I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
    .
    The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
    .
    The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
    .
    The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
    .
    The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
    .
    The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
    .
    Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
    .
    Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
    .
    Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
    .
    I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
    .

    I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
    .

  •  17  3  19 January, 2020
  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
.
It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
.
Not all men!
.
I would never do that!
.
Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
.
I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
.
The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
.
The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
.
The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
.
The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
.
The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
.
Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
.
Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
.
Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
.
I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
.

I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
.
  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
    .
    It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
    .
    Not all men!
    .
    I would never do that!
    .
    Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
    .
    I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
    .
    The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
    .
    The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
    .
    The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
    .
    The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
    .
    The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
    .
    Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
    .
    Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
    .
    Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
    .
    I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
    .

    I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
    .

  •  8  1  19 January, 2020
  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
.
It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
.
Not all men!
.
I would never do that!
.
Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
.
I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
.
The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
.
The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
.
The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
.
The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
.
The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
.
Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
.
Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
.
Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
.
I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
.

I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
.
  • Why does it bother me so much when therapists on social media use my therapy trauma stories as an invitation to tell me that some therapy is good.
    .
    It reminds me of when women told their stories about being mistreated by men, and the comments they got from men were like:
    .
    Not all men!
    .
    I would never do that!
    .
    Don't blame all men for something just a few did!
    .
    I'm not blaming every mental health professional, but I am blaming the system.
    .
    The system encourages paternalistic thinking and practices that disempower patients.
    .
    The system attracts a lot of people with narcissistic traits who want to be in positions where they can abuse their power by playing games with people's minds.
    .
    The court system coerces children to be in therapy against their will when their parents get divorced. This was one of the most damaging things that was done to me as an 8 year old kid.
    .
    The medical system coerces adults with chronic physical illness involving fatigue to be in therapy against their will, if they want access to some life-saving medications.
    .
    The medical system perpetuates a very specific cognitive dissonance. The same doctors that say mental health stigma needs to be reduced, will refuse to take undiagnosed physical conditions seriously when there is an easier path to call it depression and call it a day.
    .
    Psychiatrists are trained to medicate without plans for tapering.
    .
    Psychologists are taught to choose a stigmatizing diagnosis code for a patient’s medical record without a patient’s consent.
    .
    Physicians are taught that patients with mental illnes can’t be trusted to report accurate symptoms.
    .
    I went through trauma. I am positive I have CPTSD. But I am never putting myself in a position of weakness and low power with a therapist again.
    .

    I want a #yesallpatients hashtag. I want it to not be the patient's responsibility to be abused and abused until they “find a good fit.”
    .

  •  11  1  19 January, 2020
  • Food today!! I went out to celebrate my birthday early with my family and we had family style Italian for dinner:) Breakfast; muffin 
Lunch: breakfast burrito ❣️❣️❣️
  • Food today!! I went out to celebrate my birthday early with my family and we had family style Italian for dinner:) Breakfast; muffin
    Lunch: breakfast burrito ❣️❣️❣️

  •  41  2  19 January, 2020
  • this picture isn’t from today. today has been a hard day for me. and to be honest i’ve wanted to use behaviors all day. i haven’t. but i’ve wanted to. recovery is a lot of mental work. a lot of work that people don’t see. it’s tiring, but i know pushing myself through this feeling of being uncomfortable will eventually make days like today easier to handle, and there will be a day where i won’t want to handle the bad days by taking it out on myself. it’s not easy work, but it’s work that’ll be worth it. -
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#edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #chooserecovery #eatingdisorderawareness
  • this picture isn’t from today. today has been a hard day for me. and to be honest i’ve wanted to use behaviors all day. i haven’t. but i’ve wanted to. recovery is a lot of mental work. a lot of work that people don’t see. it’s tiring, but i know pushing myself through this feeling of being uncomfortable will eventually make days like today easier to handle, and there will be a day where i won’t want to handle the bad days by taking it out on myself. it’s not easy work, but it’s work that’ll be worth it. -
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    #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #chooserecovery #eatingdisorderawareness

  •  31  3  19 January, 2020
  • Throwback to this Margherita 🍕 . I decided to go all out and try something new, so I added jackfruit pepperoni as a topping. It wasn’t bad but not quite for me. •
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What’s your favourite pizza?
  • Throwback to this Margherita 🍕 . I decided to go all out and try something new, so I added jackfruit pepperoni as a topping. It wasn’t bad but not quite for me. •

    What’s your favourite pizza?

  •  35  5  18 January, 2020
  • a morning reminder to treat yourself kindly today. You have come so far and deserve to recover ! Make today a day of care and progress, and recognize there is healing in rest. Have a great day warriors ❣️❣️❣️
  • a morning reminder to treat yourself kindly today. You have come so far and deserve to recover ! Make today a day of care and progress, and recognize there is healing in rest. Have a great day warriors ❣️❣️❣️

  •  24  3  18 January, 2020
  • Yesterday’s food ! 
Lunch: pasta with red sauce and avocado jalapeño cream 
Dinner: chicken burrito 
Snacks: Hershey’s bar, devil dog, and trail mix with grapes + yummy coffee ++ some of this salsa edible my baby got me for my birthday ! 
Happy weekend warriors :o)
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  • Yesterday’s food !
    Lunch: pasta with red sauce and avocado jalapeño cream
    Dinner: chicken burrito
    Snacks: Hershey’s bar, devil dog, and trail mix with grapes + yummy coffee ++ some of this salsa edible my baby got me for my birthday !
    Happy weekend warriors :o)
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  •  38  2  18 January, 2020

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  • NEW YOUTUBE VIDEO - SISTERS CONTROL WHAT I EAT FOR A DAY - ANOREXIA RECOVERY - I HAVE NO CHOICE! LINK IS IN MY BIO!

My Sisters, Alisha and Satara, control what I eat for a day!

This was SO FUN! But... Did I manage to do it?

I gave up control and it was HARD.. but also freeing, and it showed me that w o w I can actually eat what I want...?!?! What would you eat if you had no control?
  • NEW YOUTUBE VIDEO - SISTERS CONTROL WHAT I EAT FOR A DAY - ANOREXIA RECOVERY - I HAVE NO CHOICE! LINK IS IN MY BIO!

    My Sisters, Alisha and Satara, control what I eat for a day!

    This was SO FUN! But... Did I manage to do it?

    I gave up control and it was HARD.. but also freeing, and it showed me that w o w I can actually eat what I want...?!?! What would you eat if you had no control?

  •  1,142  88  18 January, 2019
  • I had finally gotten to my eating disorder’s goal weight. I broke down and listened to its promises that being underweight would bring happiness and control. The wise part of me knew that this wasn’t true, but recovery seemed so impossible because this is the way that I’ve always coped. How am I supposed to face the unknown and all the darkness in the world? I had starved myself for so long that I was generally terrified to eat anything because that would mean breaking my fast, which meant disobeying my eating disorder. My ED is like this big giant pit of darkness that unleashes hell if I ate. I was so miserable, but the eating disorder was impossible to stand up to. I hit my “ultimate goal weight” and it wasn’t enough for my eating disorder. I was at the weight I’d been obsessing over, but that was it. I was still taking up too much space as far as my eating disorder was concerned. I wasn’t sick enough. I looked in the mirror and I hated what I saw, still. I had this moment of clarity that I will never be enough for my eating disorder. That’s when I reached out for help again. I was so ashamed I’d relapsed. I felt like a failure to everyone and also to my ED. It was the most confusing feeling, like being split down the middle of wanting to get better and wanting to stay in the numbness. I decided to choose recovery and give it another go. I’d forgotten what it was like to actually be nourished and able to think clearly. I’m still struggling, but things are getting a little easier. When my ED says “look at how big your thighs got” I say “thank god for my thighs because they carry me everywhere I go.” It is exhausting to be constantly fighting a war in your mind and reframing thoughts and identifying distortions, etc. But it is so worth the fight. Playing Simon Says gets old, and although it’s scary, it’s liberating to make your own decisions. I am in no way recovered, and there’s actually no such thing. I will always be in recovery. It will always be a fight, but I’m told it will get easier with time. Instead of trying to starve my curves away, I am
  • I had finally gotten to my eating disorder’s goal weight. I broke down and listened to its promises that being underweight would bring happiness and control. The wise part of me knew that this wasn’t true, but recovery seemed so impossible because this is the way that I’ve always coped. How am I supposed to face the unknown and all the darkness in the world? I had starved myself for so long that I was generally terrified to eat anything because that would mean breaking my fast, which meant disobeying my eating disorder. My ED is like this big giant pit of darkness that unleashes hell if I ate. I was so miserable, but the eating disorder was impossible to stand up to. I hit my “ultimate goal weight” and it wasn’t enough for my eating disorder. I was at the weight I’d been obsessing over, but that was it. I was still taking up too much space as far as my eating disorder was concerned. I wasn’t sick enough. I looked in the mirror and I hated what I saw, still. I had this moment of clarity that I will never be enough for my eating disorder. That’s when I reached out for help again. I was so ashamed I’d relapsed. I felt like a failure to everyone and also to my ED. It was the most confusing feeling, like being split down the middle of wanting to get better and wanting to stay in the numbness. I decided to choose recovery and give it another go. I’d forgotten what it was like to actually be nourished and able to think clearly. I’m still struggling, but things are getting a little easier. When my ED says “look at how big your thighs got” I say “thank god for my thighs because they carry me everywhere I go.” It is exhausting to be constantly fighting a war in your mind and reframing thoughts and identifying distortions, etc. But it is so worth the fight. Playing Simon Says gets old, and although it’s scary, it’s liberating to make your own decisions. I am in no way recovered, and there’s actually no such thing. I will always be in recovery. It will always be a fight, but I’m told it will get easier with time. Instead of trying to starve my curves away, I am

  •  458  48  8 September, 2019
  • “It’s real simple,  eat everything in moderation.”
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This works for people who have a normal relationship with food, it doesn’t for people who don’t. Food/sugar addicts, “emotional eaters,“ and people with eating disorders are incapable of sustaining moderation.
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We’ve all done this temporarily when we’re on a diet, but inevitably that moderation goes away for a binge, for a cheat meal that turns into a day, a weekend and for many weeks or months of being “off the wagon.“
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Many people get away with the “moderation“ for a while but what starts out as once a month becomes twice a month and then every weekend and eventually comes back to daily destructive behavior with food and regaining of weight. We see it on SM everyday.

99% is a bitch, 100% is a breeze. There are moderators and there are abstainers. Moderators typically don’t have a weight problem or diseases that stemmed from their eating. My husband is a moderator and he has been his entire life and it’s one thing I could never relate to. •
I’m incapable of moderation when it comes to carbs. One cookie was too many and 10 was never enough. When it comes to sugar and grains, I need to treat them the way an alcoholic treats his alcoholism and the way a drug addict treats his drug addiction.
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Until I learned this and actually accepted it I was dying of addiction. So many years I kept trying to moderate -via all the diets-namely calorie restriction. I could work the snickers bar in my calorie count for a while but ultimately addiction won and my daily sugar habit always returned.

It’s freedom being off that roller coaster, not repeatedly “falling off the wagon” and starting over.  Trying to be a moderator is exhausting. Many of you out there are exhausted and you’re starting over on a regular basis-via 100 days of “no cheats” or all the “Keto reset” challenges after a carb bender. •
When will it end? It ends with acceptance and the willingness to live without your drug. Period. If the thought of that makes you angry, anxious or sad that’s a sign that it probably applies to you. 
#foodsobriety #recovery #addictionrecovery #edwarrior #edsurvivor #edfreedom #chooserecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #freedom
  • “It’s real simple, eat everything in moderation.”

    This works for people who have a normal relationship with food, it doesn’t for people who don’t. Food/sugar addicts, “emotional eaters,“ and people with eating disorders are incapable of sustaining moderation.

    We’ve all done this temporarily when we’re on a diet, but inevitably that moderation goes away for a binge, for a cheat meal that turns into a day, a weekend and for many weeks or months of being “off the wagon.“

    Many people get away with the “moderation“ for a while but what starts out as once a month becomes twice a month and then every weekend and eventually comes back to daily destructive behavior with food and regaining of weight. We see it on SM everyday.

    99% is a bitch, 100% is a breeze. There are moderators and there are abstainers. Moderators typically don’t have a weight problem or diseases that stemmed from their eating. My husband is a moderator and he has been his entire life and it’s one thing I could never relate to. •
    I’m incapable of moderation when it comes to carbs. One cookie was too many and 10 was never enough. When it comes to sugar and grains, I need to treat them the way an alcoholic treats his alcoholism and the way a drug addict treats his drug addiction.

    Until I learned this and actually accepted it I was dying of addiction. So many years I kept trying to moderate -via all the diets-namely calorie restriction. I could work the snickers bar in my calorie count for a while but ultimately addiction won and my daily sugar habit always returned.

    It’s freedom being off that roller coaster, not repeatedly “falling off the wagon” and starting over. Trying to be a moderator is exhausting. Many of you out there are exhausted and you’re starting over on a regular basis-via 100 days of “no cheats” or all the “Keto reset” challenges after a carb bender. •
    When will it end? It ends with acceptance and the willingness to live without your drug. Period. If the thought of that makes you angry, anxious or sad that’s a sign that it probably applies to you.
    #foodsobriety #recovery #addictionrecovery #edwarrior #edsurvivor #edfreedom #chooserecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #freedom

  •  557  152  29 July, 2019
  • Admittedly I had nothing new to post so have a little throwback from the summer (I just wanted to come say hi)🤷🏼‍♀️
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I love getting dms off you guys🥰, one of the most common questions I get asked is ‘how to put on muscle’.
You could be eating all the “healthiest” foods. But if you’re not in a caloric surplus (taking in MORE energy than your expending), you cannot gain mass (water/fat/muscle).
this number will be so specific to everyone so there is no point in copying your favourite YouTuber’s macros in the hope that you’ll obtain their physique.
You should aim for a certain amount of protein a day (for me I aim for about 130g) but how you make up the rest of your macros really doesn’t matter- so don’t be scared of carbs, they give us energy and are generally delicious. even Eat pure cereal if you want🤷🏼‍♀️ and don’t be scared of fat, it is fundamental for your hormonal health. The point is- as long as your in a surplus, you can & will gain mass.
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(If you’re in eating disorder recovery and you need to gain weight, please remember that you absolutely need to gain fat as well, put your mental health before anything else- you’ll thank yourself later down the line!!❤️, I plan to make a more in-depth video on exercise in eating disorder recovery however too as I feel this isn’t spoken about so broadly.)
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Wish you all a lovely start to the week,  sorry for a lack of content but more is coming.. currently getting my life together 🤷🏼‍♀️🤪❤️
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#strongnotskinny #gymshark #fitfam #fitness #girlswholift #curlsforthegirls #bulkingnotsulking #strengthtraining #alphaleteathletics #mondaymotivation #motivationalquotes #eatingdisorderecovery 
#chooserecovery
  • Admittedly I had nothing new to post so have a little throwback from the summer (I just wanted to come say hi)🤷🏼‍♀️
    -
    I love getting dms off you guys🥰, one of the most common questions I get asked is ‘how to put on muscle’.
    You could be eating all the “healthiest” foods. But if you’re not in a caloric surplus (taking in MORE energy than your expending), you cannot gain mass (water/fat/muscle).
    this number will be so specific to everyone so there is no point in copying your favourite YouTuber’s macros in the hope that you’ll obtain their physique.
    You should aim for a certain amount of protein a day (for me I aim for about 130g) but how you make up the rest of your macros really doesn’t matter- so don’t be scared of carbs, they give us energy and are generally delicious. even Eat pure cereal if you want🤷🏼‍♀️ and don’t be scared of fat, it is fundamental for your hormonal health. The point is- as long as your in a surplus, you can & will gain mass.
    -
    (If you’re in eating disorder recovery and you need to gain weight, please remember that you absolutely need to gain fat as well, put your mental health before anything else- you’ll thank yourself later down the line!!❤️, I plan to make a more in-depth video on exercise in eating disorder recovery however too as I feel this isn’t spoken about so broadly.)
    -
    Wish you all a lovely start to the week, sorry for a lack of content but more is coming.. currently getting my life together 🤷🏼‍♀️🤪❤️
    -
    #strongnotskinny #gymshark #fitfam #fitness #girlswholift #curlsforthegirls #bulkingnotsulking #strengthtraining #alphaleteathletics #mondaymotivation #motivationalquotes #eatingdisorderecovery
    #chooserecovery

  •  1,577  69  14 January, 2019
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  •  630  42  17 October, 2019
  • Weight restored does NOT equal recovered!!! I hear people say things like "glad to see you're not anorexic anymore, you look so healthy now!" because their assumption is that weight restoration = cured. Pshh... I WISH.

Having Anorexia isn't the same as being underweight. Anorexia is an illness of the mind more so than it is one of the body, even though the physical effects are the most obvious and urgent when it comes to treatment. So just because someone looks healthy on the outside doesn't mean they're doing ok or that they are no longer at risk of getting sick again.

I made that mistake the first time around, and so did my parents. Everyone treated me normally because I was "better," and even I myself denied having any thoughts anymore, even though they were still there. I thought that even if my mind wanted me to eat less sometimes or the thoughts kept telling me I was fat, I would never get sick again, but clearly I had no understanding of the illness at that stage because within 2 years I was in hospital.

So my advice: don't lie to yourself. Don't start flaking with your meal plan because "you're better and you don't need a meal plan anymore." Don't ignore the warning signs. Don't live in a fantasy land where healthy weight means you're "cured." Don't use your weight to justify disordered behaviours.

DO work on your mental health and your coping strategies. DO practise self care. DO see a therapist and tell them when things are extra tough. DO learn to manage your thoughts and triggers and be prepared to commit to recovery on a long term basis. 
Recovery doesn't end when you hit your healthy weight, in fact it's not a short term process at all. It has taken me years to get to this point where I can understand the illness and ignore the thoughts almost all of the time, and I've been weight restored for ages. 
Keep choosing recovery guys, don't let the monster that is anorexia get you again!! I believe in you ❤️
  • Weight restored does NOT equal recovered!!! I hear people say things like "glad to see you're not anorexic anymore, you look so healthy now!" because their assumption is that weight restoration = cured. Pshh... I WISH.

    Having Anorexia isn't the same as being underweight. Anorexia is an illness of the mind more so than it is one of the body, even though the physical effects are the most obvious and urgent when it comes to treatment. So just because someone looks healthy on the outside doesn't mean they're doing ok or that they are no longer at risk of getting sick again.

    I made that mistake the first time around, and so did my parents. Everyone treated me normally because I was "better," and even I myself denied having any thoughts anymore, even though they were still there. I thought that even if my mind wanted me to eat less sometimes or the thoughts kept telling me I was fat, I would never get sick again, but clearly I had no understanding of the illness at that stage because within 2 years I was in hospital.

    So my advice: don't lie to yourself. Don't start flaking with your meal plan because "you're better and you don't need a meal plan anymore." Don't ignore the warning signs. Don't live in a fantasy land where healthy weight means you're "cured." Don't use your weight to justify disordered behaviours.

    DO work on your mental health and your coping strategies. DO practise self care. DO see a therapist and tell them when things are extra tough. DO learn to manage your thoughts and triggers and be prepared to commit to recovery on a long term basis.
    Recovery doesn't end when you hit your healthy weight, in fact it's not a short term process at all. It has taken me years to get to this point where I can understand the illness and ignore the thoughts almost all of the time, and I've been weight restored for ages.
    Keep choosing recovery guys, don't let the monster that is anorexia get you again!! I believe in you ❤️

  •  594  22  12 July, 2019